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Sunday, December 13, 2009
been travelling up and down the past 2 days and though there wasn't much to do there, it was pretty energy draining. it was a group of 20+ participants, kinda like a typical kanektas session in the 'stable' setting. the interesting thing is that we had the youngest participant at 10 years old. 10-23 yrs was the age group present. spent friday afternoon setting up and head home. saturday was a full day from 7am-11.30pm, head home to study till 2.30am. sunday morning, 7am- 12pm. headed down to East Coast Park to meet da kanektas gang. a pretty long drive. i believe Mark and i are so familiar with the CTE now. i guess Mr. Tiredness came along with me. Thought i could find some joy and relief, but to be frank, i just felt like leaving the moment i met everyone. 1) wayne didn't want to cycle, mark had to accompany him. in the end, we figured that they didn't even know why they came when they told me they wanted to come along. they decided to head back. it feels as if i just had to have them drive me down?? 2) to be honest, i felt so transparent, its as if i was wondering why i was there. i figured that the only people who made me feel 'existent' throughout were rach.c, anteaus and kenji. To me, it was like a day out with just the 3 of them.  I don't mean to hurt or blame anyone. Its my blog, my thoughts, if you choose to read this, i'm sorry but im just being frank. Its back to studies for now. RoNn had a photo shoot @ 11:32 PM |