r-o-n-n

back to reality

2010-06-30T16:30:00.002+08:00

damn right 3 weeks pasts so fast.

2 weeks of studying and mugging at Menlo college and 1 week of RnR.

i should think none of us are looking forward to heading back to Singapore.

the weather here is perfect! though its so cold now (10degc)!

oh well.

The Pursuit of Happiness

2010-06-19T01:18:00.002+08:00

Money, Business and the American dream.

That is what i'm studying here in California. No doubt the work load is crazy, late nights

to rush out response papers and essays, but this has certainly made me think about much

things.

"You got a dream... You gotta protect it. People can't do somethin' themselves, they wanna tell you you can't do it. If you want somethin', go get it. Period." - Christopher Gardner (Will Smith), The Pursuit of Happiness

the chill pill

2010-06-04T12:48:00.006+08:00

i'll buy a carton of it if i should see it.

been really bad days the past week. i guess its the fatigue, stress, anxiety all kicking in.

i just do not know why i have been very bad at controlling my temper. when i actually cool

down, i look back at that moment and see how unnecessary it was.

i suppose the friends around me would have sensed it, perhaps shocked. i'm sorry.

i just do not seem to be myself.

i seem to get worked up over every small matter.

it gets tiring to live a life in a bubble. cautious as to what i must not say to anyone around me.

but my mind is just determined to do so. so be it.

"There is no one else for me, none... but Jesus."

its all coming!

2010-05-30T00:57:00.002+08:00

1) 1000 word WISP essay

2) read at least 2 of the books for California Challenge

3) prepare for common test (1 weeks time), 2 modules

4) practical test

5) project proposals, submission

Just done with the essay.

others' opinions

2010-05-22T22:56:00.002+08:00

its been a really long time since i've blogged. i guess i've just found a reason to do so now.

call me ignorant or naive, but i never knew the world around me would be so full

of opinions and critics about me. i never knew so much were said and thought about me.

yes i am not a perfect person. i made mistakes. i've done and said things i shouldn't have.

i've trusted the wrong people. i never did expect what i said to friends to be so insensitively

passed onto another. neither did i expect words that didn't come from me to surface to

the ears of others.

i've become cautious when it comes to friendships. i guess it has just become so obvious now

that almost everyone is a hypocrite. knowingly or unknowingly.

i despise people who talk behind my back. i am guilty of doing so to others at times.

why must we criticize and judge others the very moment they turn their backs upon you?

is it considered stupid to tell the person about what you are unhappy about?

or is it your lack of courage to do so?

i ask myself if all these would have happened if i never did step into the lives of

these people. and as these thoughts run through my head, a person comes to mind.

it was a mistake through and through.

everything that had been said wouldn't be said. disappointment wouldn't arise because

any trust would not have been built. gossips would not have started because there was

simply nothing to gossip about.

judge me all you want, i don't give a bloody damn about it!

why don't you look at yourself before you talk about others?

the week

2010-04-26T00:22:00.002+08:00

just had a highlight of the week.

dad damaged the car. WTF larh.

sorry but i'm just pissed lar. it happened at the carpark, into a low wall

while turning out.

i wasn't there but he told me when he came home.

its ugly! but not in a very obvious location, but its bad damage and dented, paintwork

damaged of course. dad sees no intention to fix it.

school has been pretty ok for first week. i'm feeling the fatigue though,

perhaps not adapting well yet. its not a busy week but the tiredness i get

from it feels like one.

the new class has been good. fitting in for now. its really different from my

other class but its a good thing as of now.

its projects and more event planning this semester.

planning and designing it all by ourselves.

The two modules are Live sound setup and Audio recording (indoor/outdoor)

for AEP (audio effects processing, 5.1 surround sound etc).

Only 1 examinable module and that is Stage Lighting.

1 Essay writing module, 1000 word essays to write for IS-World Issues, Perspectives.

=.="

1 presentation module, Effective Negotiation.

my new toy!

2010-04-07T01:12:00.002+08:00

holy week. +loads of photos!

2010-04-02T01:34:00.009+08:00

it feels kinda different than all other years. the looking forward to go for the mass and services.
strange but hmmmm.

UDDERS with Denise, Ryan, XingDan, Joel

From Island Creamery with Denise and gang

it was a good meetup with denise yesterday. Got Joel, Xing Dan and Ryan along too.
we talked pretty much, about uni and scholarships that she got. talked about how time flies. in
i guess we all pretty much miss those days in Phillipines.

Gonna meetup with Tricia soon. Joel has seen the letter that our Lil' Mark wrote to us.
Shall upload pics of it soon.

SUSHI BUFFET WITH PANG+JOANNE

I COOKED

and of course. my self made omellete noodles. =P for lunch. pretty bored at home. so..

not that i do not cook, i do, quite often. small meals larh. just thought of taking a pic

of this!

SELETAR AIRPORT SPICY BUFFALO WINGS
just felt like uploading some photos that were taken some time back! before the 2 guys went
for attachment programme. our crazy drive to Seletar airport for Spicy Buffalo wings. Lvl 9.
i took 2 bites! YEAH! big acheivment.

Seletar Airport

KANEKTAS YOUTH MINISTRY VISIT TO ST.JOSEPH'S Home

lookin' back

2010-03-22T21:25:00.006+08:00

Facebook Status....
Ronney "is looking back at thousands of photos in my old olympus camera. the time after my o lvls, spent with the children. brings back so much memories. and not to forget the crazy times spent with friends that were so close as ever back then."

I wish it could all happen all over again. But i've accepted that in reality, things have changed.
These were just photos, memories that remain with us. We've all moved on, the kids have left the student care centre,
many have grown so much. I know i'm different too.
The crazy times spent with those friends..each have their commitments and lives to lead. No doubt we have tried
to reconcile everything, but it just isn't the same anymore ain't it?

Well. I was just formatting all 3 of my memory cards from my previous camera, the Olympus which i can't believe i paid
$599 for it in 2006 Christmas Eve! Selling it now for a hundred bucks.

Of course besides getting all nostalgic after looking through the photos, I'm reminded by my humble photography
beginnings. With such a simple camera i've learnt so much.

For those who are curious about da photos i've taken 4 years ago,

long day out

2010-03-19T00:31:00.003+08:00

ronney hasn't woken up so early this week before. 9am =.="
haha! been sleeping at 4am the whole week, so..

but it was worth it. accompany Jo after her physiotherapy this morning.
melvin and i met her in town and we just hang around for lunch.
went to the movies after that, watched "Green Zone", it was good!

when melvin left for meeting with Sherry, Jo and I continued walking
around Plaza Sing and head down to Orchard Central.. explored every floor
and the roof garden. Oh! and i was looking for my berms too.
She convinced me to get a black one though it felt weird because i have
never had a Black colour berms. I have... Gray, Dark Green Striped, Brown.

Got a shirt too in the end. All thanks to JO. it caught my eye and lingered
in my mind for so long. So it was shopping day for me in the end. Love
the feeling of not going home empty handed!

It was about 7pm. We head back to West Mall. Long bus ride! and i was damn
hungry. "A hungry man is an angry man!"
Had pasta mania. LOADS of food. I overate. Felt so uneasy after that.
Creamy Chicken Pasta, Soup, Garlic Bread, Apple Crumble Desert. WOOO!

Jo followed me home to get the car key and i drove her home. Ends the day!

aged

2010-02-28T00:29:00.002+08:00

time flies.
its da holidays now. a good rest spent watching lots of tv and surfing online.

had a long day today. really long day. a Saturday.
stupid move to drink coffee bean's black forest at 11pm. my eyes were wide open
in bed till 5am at least. got up at 9am and went with Charles to DLS to collect math files
he forgot to give out to his students, for Common tests on monday.

and so we played basketball with Jo, Tham and Charles.
it was DHL delivery mission to EVERY student's house after that. YES.
from woodlands to teck whye, yew tee, cck. 1pm to 6pm inclusive of lunch break.
tiring. but interesting! haha.
charles was definitely exhausted runnning up every house. i took the wheel. did
some running up for him too. the reason why my fb status writes.. "Ronney thinks he
will sleep very well tonight".

Excited that the car has been serviced. Dad told me they changed a different grade of
engine oil and its smoother and quieter now. Can't wait to test it out. 0.0

Its rare to have the entire family at the tv. Titanic was screening, that is why.
As we talk about alot other stuff, it just occured to me how much my parents have aged.
No doubt my parents have difficulty reading now, more fatigue than ever after work.
Time flies, my brother and i have grown up. We weren't brought up with a silver spoon.
I know my parents slogged very hard to give us a good life, a life good enough for me.
There's still a long way to go though. NS? University.. before i can provide for them.

For now, i'll take that extra step to help them out and pick my mum from work.
Shall enjoy mum's cooking for now though.

Thats it for now. A really long update in 2 years i think.

dilema dilema

2010-02-09T03:26:00.004+08:00

i'm least happy to receive news that i have been selected for the Overseas Merit Scholarship.
Indeed, the prestigious $10k trip that is fully paid for by NP seems like the choice to go for,
but few or none would be able to understand the difficulty i'm having in making the decision
to leave my current class.

This is what happens. Class A which i am in, is supposed to go for attachment from
March to August. But if i am going for the 2 week trip in June, it means i got to go for
normal lessons instead, followed by
the next attachment round with Class B, much later in September.
Class A will be back in school for lessons in September.

It simply means, Yr3 for me will be with another class. My final year.
I guess i've come to feel so bonded with my current class.

The choice is obvious, everyone tells me not to forgo the California Challenge.
I got to make a decision by tomorrow.

2nd dilema regards ministry in church.

crazy weeks are coming.

2010-02-02T23:26:00.005+08:00

crazy weeks are coming up!

well last week ended on a pretty good note though.
spending the weekend and an entire night at the studio finishing up da mixing of our recorded song.
and having lots of fun. haha. driving around for supper. getting a warning slip by NP estate management.

here's this week and next week. and exams after CNY.

Mon: French written assesment
Wed: PCN prac test, ATE Quiz
Thurs: MMP theory test, ATE prac test

Tues: MMP presentation
Wednesday: PCN Theory Test
Friday: DSP prac test

CNY = Study week

i'm at a crossroad once again. i wish i could have an open mind to this decision but i seem
pretty negative already. and to think i would feel this way, distracted, just before this is to come.
well oh well.

study study for now.

upcoming week

2010-01-22T11:53:00.002+08:00

crazy.

i've yet to prepare for a math test, 15%.
lots to catch up on. lots of practice.

dialogue session + interview for California Challenge.
a minister is coming on thursday for a dialogue, and i got to prepare
for the interview on the next day (friday). topic is about the
"10 challenges for Singapore's next generation" by SM Goh. =.="

catching up

2010-01-12T22:40:00.003+08:00

school's begun. i feel so lost and so backward in my math module.
i've under-performed. pretty disappointed. surprised. i guess i didn't give my 100% as
i should have.
looking back at year 1 sem 1, how i would commit an hour or 2 every night to revise and
reading ahead for next day's class.
that was back then. now, its television, facebook and hanging out all night.

its been a while since i've blogged.

its all about directions for now. ministry. studies. sports.

how i spent New Year's Eve =)

2010-01-01T21:13:00.003+08:00

skating skating, spending frenzy

2009-12-23T02:14:00.002+08:00

spent 45 hours w/o sleep, driving all around at night with mark, rachel and antaeus.
head down to marina barrage with kanektas gang when day breaks and came back to the west for bbq when the sun set. =)

had a crazy flying incident in the bus to marina barrage.
spinned.. 360 degrees while i was thrown forward while standing in the bus when it slammed its brakes to
avoid hitting a car that came out into its way. didn't hurt at first.
it was late at night that the elbows start to hurt larh.
i was thinking how i could fall so hard and not have any injuries.

been skating alot recently. with rachel, antaeus.

gonna see the doc about my eye 2moro morning. tuition. head to school. meet antaeus. skate with rach.c.
yup. gonna be an eventful day. =)

i feel really bad about something. mum has spent really alot of money recently on lots of things this month for the household.
alot techie stuff that i suggested =P
and of course she also wanted to change it larh since our speakers are pretty hideous.
its coming on christmas eve.. how exciting =D

yawns.

2009-12-21T00:42:00.002+08:00

crazy weekend was a great getaway from whatever that has been happening.

my blog is my journal, not a personal attack space or whatever, if you choose to read it,
swallow it. otherwise, pretend you didn't.

the truth is getting harder than i thought it would be.

yawns. its back to tuition 2moro. and enjoying my hols.

my long week

2009-12-13T23:32:00.003+08:00

advent retreat ended for me today, sunday afternoon.
been travelling up and down the past 2 days and though there wasn't much to do there,
it was pretty energy draining.
it was a group of 20+ participants, kinda like a typical kanektas session in the 'stable' setting.
the interesting thing is that we had the youngest participant at 10 years old. 10-23 yrs was the age group present.
spent friday afternoon setting up and head home.
saturday was a full day from 7am-11.30pm, head home to study till 2.30am.
sunday morning, 7am- 12pm.

headed down to East Coast Park to meet da kanektas gang. a pretty long drive.
i believe Mark and i are so familiar with the CTE now.
i guess Mr. Tiredness came along with me. Thought i could find some joy and relief,
but to be frank, i just felt like leaving the moment i met everyone.

1) wayne didn't want to cycle, mark had to accompany him. in the end, we figured that
they didn't even know why they came when they told me they wanted to come along.
they decided to head back. it feels as if i just had to have them drive me down??

2) to be honest, i felt so transparent, its as if i was wondering why i was there.
i figured that the only people who made me feel 'existent' throughout were
rach.c, anteaus and kenji. To me, it was like a day out with just the 3 of them.

I don't mean to hurt or blame anyone. Its my blog, my thoughts, if you choose to read this,
i'm sorry but im just being frank.
Its back to studies for now.

priorities

2009-12-08T00:20:00.002+08:00

hectic week.

i managed to get started on my revision. ain't going too good though. really slow paced.
just cannot focus. been forgetting and re-revising time and again.

Tuesday- Wship team prac for advent retreat
Wednesday- PC networking class test, 5 chapters, 15%
Thursday- Audio Technology Presentation + Music Production Practical Test.
Friday- Digital sound processing test, 10% + Advent retreat preparation and setup.

following week...
Monday- Advent retreat ends.
Tuesday- Engineering Math Common test
Wednesday- Audio Tech Common test

i'm so freakin' screwed.

tired

2009-12-03T00:01:00.003+08:00

common tests comin' up.

family. friends.

i'm kinda tired of trying to keep up. i feel so distant now.

there are many question marks in my head. i feel my mum's worries.
i know i'm not making any sense here, thats because i am trying not to.

but it is at this point in time i still find that there is no one i turn to, to
share every detail in total trust for now.
i've no idea when that would happen again though.

got to start studying. discipline is what i need. oh gosh.

The Purpose of Christmas

2009-11-26T00:44:00.004+08:00

I was planning for the Praise and Worship session and i was looking at the shelf
beside me for a book perhaps. A familiar red book caught my eye,
"The Purpose of Christmas"
Taking it out, I was hoping to be able to find some
inspiration or quote, but i found the words "reconciliation" and "forgiveness"
again, on the very first page i opened the book to.

I guess God knew this was to come since last Christmas? Its funny how
this gift came about back then and how it speaks to me a year later and
how strange from whom this was from too.

The difference between "reconciliation" and "resolution". It does not
mean one has to find a solution to the problem in order to reconcile
the relationship, but instead, seek to reconcile first, and work towards
a solution together.

how about this pair??

2009-11-17T13:24:00.003+08:00

untitled

2009-11-17T00:55:00.003+08:00

disappointed once again i guess, twice as hard.
it'll be impossible to say that i'm least affected to know the truth after
all these while, but i told myself that i will fight that, just because i figured that our special friendship is
definetly worth more than that.

i promised you, promised myself and i will keep it.
heres a reminder to myself. so hang in there!

crazy!

2009-11-10T23:47:00.002+08:00

crazy!
my phone kept ringing. sms-es. phone calls.
couldn't believe it.

arrrgh. shall let the screen shot speak for itself.

heres what happened. ronney logged onto facebook on the iMac in class.
left it on even after leaving the classroom.
some prick... probably did this prank.

not in the best of moods now though. my eyes are getting very uncomfortable,
the right eye especially. getting red and fatigued easily.
8am lssn 2moro. god bless me.

whoever said blog shopping is only for girls??

2009-11-04T23:48:00.003+08:00

how about this shirt? hmmmphs...
oh! i meant the grey one.. top most one here.

POLL

2009-11-04T00:49:00.001+08:00

should i get this pair of shoes?

all of my life, in every season, you are still god. i have a reason to sing, have a reason to worship.

2009-11-02T00:01:00.004+08:00

crazy!

2009-10-31T04:17:00.005+08:00

its another crazy attempt again!
4.30am sleep. 7.30am wake up. Pulau Ubin mountain biking!
the last time i did this, 4.30am sleep, 6.30am wake up. take a bus to Tampines, Holy Trinity church camp.

hungry. can't sleep.
just occured to me that i've yet to be able to forgive. always thinking that i have done so.
i guess its hard to trust someone totally, even with the most unsaid of things among my other friends. that is me.
when i cannot look at the person in the eye. is it the unforgiveness?
i feel "fake".
that is why things can never be the same as they were before. not for now. not in any time soon either. i seem to have built that wall even higher this time.

crazy day 2moro!
1. Ubin!
2. Worship prac @ SJC
3. BBQ @ Simei

plans

2009-10-28T23:39:00.003+08:00

new semester at school ain't too interesting.
with little motivation, i have this "doomed" feeling. haha.
because i am hardly interested nor paying any attention in class. not doing
tutorials, not revising.

monday is my excercise day. swimming or jogging.

friday is da day with da kids at KK hospital.
had 2 sessions and its just great to accompany them.
seeing some really intelligent and bright kids.
some of which had lost their mobility.
infants with tubes and needles in them.
its a rather saddening sight at times. but i am so heartened when i see that radiance in some
of their faces despite being hospitalized.
the contagious joy on their faces radiates from within.

i should plan a photography day for myself next week. its been ages since i last
touched my camera.
and.
a revision day.

i seem to be doing anything but my work. blogging. surfing. facebook.
oh god, pls help me!

PLEASE!

2009-10-25T23:30:00.002+08:00

why can't there be PEACE and QUIET at home ?!

insomnia

2009-10-21T00:51:00.003+08:00

can't get to sleep. i know i need sleep.

it is either that i'm not used to sleeping early after the holidays or what is on my mind.

i got to agree with what a friend of mine said. that some friends turn to you or look
for you only when they need something from you.

i'm sick and tired of being disappointed at times that when you thought you have found
true friends whom you know will be there for you and look upon you as a friend indeed.
disappointed that whenever they make plans, you are never even thought about, remembered.

be it skating, ministry, ccas.

i guess some people just do not realise that when they start sharing or narrating about
that particular occasion, they do not realise how you feel or realise that it would make you feel left out?
some people deny or find reasons after what has happened, be it that you are at work, so on and so forth, when in the first place, the very fact is that they never even had you crossed their minds in the first place.
its puzzling that sometimes you would hear familiar stories about how they could travel to the ends of the island or even make crazy plans to just pick someone up or work around his free time because they have in fact thought of having him around.
so then, are those reasons made up to make me feel better?

used to think that i found a friend who could understand everything i shared.
but its changed. perhaps thinking that i need some time away to settle down, when in
fact i am always hoping that that is the time i have that friend who hears me out.
perhaps that once a close friend of mine probably still thinks that i'm thinking too much.
if that is so, then i really am very certain that the person hasn't known me one bit at all.

i know my weaknesses. if i am certain about something, i would have been sure it
wasn't from a weakness of mine.

and if that friend thinks that it is because of what has happened tonight only, that i am making a
mountain out of a molehill, then im sorry, you really do not know me one bit at all too.

school's starting!

2009-10-19T00:33:00.002+08:00

perhaps i may forget that school starts 2moro. and forget to wake up.
oh gosh. 8am lssn!
AARGH.

decided not to change my macbook. kinda way out of my budget.
afterall the skin is untouched.
just upgraded my RAM and changed a new LCD panel.
my parents always say... live within your means. i obviously haven't
been doing that all these years. its time to.

a new week begins.
an interesting weekend coming up.
i got to focus.
putting aside those distracting issues. call it an escape for the time being.
kinda tired. trying and things don't work out.

serving at Holy Trinty church concamp. will be spending the weekend in the east =)

upgrade upgrade!

2009-10-12T22:33:00.004+08:00

went for my eye review this morning at Glen.E.
it was horrible having to wake up so early! arrgh.
but everything is good. thank god because i kinda "self-declared" a stop
to all my medication 2 weeks back. gg back there for reviews with my mum
has been a good time to talk, have lunch.

mum dad is supportive of me upgrading my white macbk to the aluminium!

dad's willing to chip in after selling his shares when it goes higher soon.

oh man. i can't bear to touch my pay.

but i cannot find any other reason to keep my white macbook if they have to

un-skin it in order to fix my lcd screen.

the skin is the only reason why im in a dilema as to whether or not i will

upgrade to this macbk in the past.

but i don't think i will look at the "pro" version. kinda out of my budget.

Last day at work! Stomp 09'!

2009-10-09T01:43:00.006+08:00

Friday, 8th October. STOMP 09' was really awesome and funny!

they used brooms, metal sinks, cups, dustbins, matchboxes, newspapers!
and loads of humour!
my bro and i bought a "stubby holder" and a mug!
wads da stubby holder thing? hmmmphs. it just looks nice! haha.

met twin early early in da morn after her night shift.
decided to surprise her since i ended my work ystd.
guess she was just too tired.
woke up at 6.20am and reached there at 7.30am.
we just had breakfast and i came back home to sleep till evening.
oh! and on my way home, i missed my stop all the way till Joo Koon! oh gosh.

Last day at Stnchrt (Tampines)
though i do not miss the work there, i miss the people.
work has nvr been full of joy and laughter w/o the ppl there!
and all the endless supply of food.... =P

Daphne! always cheerful and bubbly.
a really young mother of a 6 year old in her late 20s?!
i really admire her.

Elise. treat me to lunch this week, thank you!
she's like my godmother at work. always so thoughtful for the people around her.
she even volunteered to put aside her work and help us out till 11pm that night.
bought us drinks, food.

Uncle Shum! speaks in that Hong Kong accent. haha
he says he can never run away from being identified as one.
really funny guy larh! we speak cantonese occasionally at work. haha.

Margaret! she always say she is "siao" or "bian tai".
its damn funny to sit beside her and work. haha!
i still rmb that when she saw a girl wearing a tube top, she said she wanted to pull it down larh!
i was so shocked! haha.

thats david! and in my hand is the haagen daaz ice cream he gave me!
haha. everyone was like saying im so lucky because he has never ever bought
a temp stuff such expensive thing before! haha.
probably i saved him from his arm that was stuck in the drawer. Daphne, uncle shum and i were so freaked out that morning. i had to force out the drawer.

this is helen =)
a really inspiring team leader who always cares for her staff.
she will ask and talk to all of us, asking how are we and all.

Joshua and Chang Yi. left after my first week there!
they talked the most crap ever. haha. the office was never quiet.

Boon Ngee. i thought she was very fierce at first. haha.
but yeah i had a good chat with her while working into the night. now i kinda
understand how my mum works and cares for her children.
she, daph and margaret bought me muffins!

then Derick will stay on after i leave. still wrking while studying at SIM.
talks loud. and talks alot too.

and Uncle Chua. a retiree who came a few days ago.
had to be super patient while teaching him. he goes to st mary of the angels too!

and many many others whom i did not have a chance to take a photo with.
Hanson, Bee Lian. really really nice people and i thank god for them.
I was so thankful for all their well wishes as i left on my last day and all the affirmations,
asking me to work hard and some saying that "aii yarhh, should be no problem you so smart!"
haha!

of course i believe i have left a legacy..
Daphne calls me.. "na ge zui tan chi de"
and others say my memory most "tok gong" .
haha! i actually held a pen between my fingers and started asking around where it was
on my first day in the Central Scanning Unit room.

oh well.

random thoughts

2009-10-08T18:01:00.007+08:00

these are BLUE fonts for sure. just need to rant out. i hope not many ppl will read this post.
oh well.

sometimes as i look through many fb pictures, many look really familiar.
they invoke memories of the past.

but its the past afterall.

and sometimes as i look through many photos and i will wonder if could fit in them.
or why i wasn't in there.
or the forgotten one.
and in the other photos that i were in there, was i the "extra" if im in there.

kinda tired of looking for that "somewhere" i belong. tired of being "forgotten"?
its just that no matter how hard you try, it doesn't work out. so be it.

-insignificant

work work work

2009-10-05T23:21:00.002+08:00

OT sux.

upon reaching the 8th hour of working, the fatigue sets in.
the only thing that keeps me going is the OT pay.

and after that, its the 1 hour train ride home.

goodness gracious me. im so gonna need a very good sleep.

Its Your Love

2009-10-05T23:20:00.000+08:00

Upon the hill on Calvary
He came from Heaven's throne
Our fallenness and mercy meet
Where blood and water flow

[Verse 2:]
What grace divine what selflessness
That Christ would bear the weight
Our proof is scarred on hands that bled
That we were worth every nail

[Chorus:]
And all the praise and glory to God
We sing Hallelujah sing Hallelujah
For the King has carried the cross
He is risen from the grave

[Verse 3:]
Beyond the tomb to holy skies
He rose in victory
[ Hillsong Church Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
And bridged for us the great divide
His life is our liberty

[Repeat Chorus:]

[Bridge:]
It's Your love
It's Your love
It's Your love
That has saved me

It's Your blood
It's Your blood
It's Your blood
That has cleaned me

[Bridge:]
Oh-Oh Woah Woah

depressed

2009-10-04T01:21:00.002+08:00

my mac baby has got a problem starting up!

argh. keeps beeping away on the white screen immediately upon pressing the "on" button.
read up online and dey say may be the RAM problem.
but sometimes, after multiple attempts of up to 20 trys, it starts up!
but now... i do not dare to shut her down. only putting her to sleep.

hmmm.
and my mac baby has a burn-in on the lcd screeeeen!
oh craps!
got a bar of brighter region while da rest is dark.
i guess i didnt shut down one night while leaving the screen idle on a particular screen.

perhaps now i really do understand what "screen-savers" are for...
they really save your screen.
if you still do not understand...
its because it animates and moves, w/o leaving ur screen idling on on particular screen.
cos den liddat some part will "chao-ta"....

you people made my week.

2009-09-30T00:54:00.003+08:00

back then...

2 years on...

time flies indeed. its 2 years since we last had a kbox session and meetup like this.

it was hell lot of fun!

i will treasure these photos alot. till we meet again "Hitlers"!

Rosalind. Sophia. Eileen, Cheryl. Juo Wi.

Can't imagine myself in my SJAB uniform again! haha!

work has been hectic this week. many of the temp staff have left.

leaves me and most of the work.

but well. i really do enjoy the company of the ppl at work.

really funny and nice ppl. and loads of goodies and food!

keeps me occupied too, keeps time passing w/o me having to ponder too much

over what has been happening.

and of course. my dear sister visits me for lunch every now and then!

on kbox day, she came with eileen. den i met them again in the evening for kbox of course!

and today. =)

2009-09-28T01:25:00.002+08:00

"btw, I did keep you in my prayers yesterday, and ha ha remembered a song from ten thousand years ago (you probably already know it)- Pray, by True Vibe (:

Pray, when the road is steep
Pray, when your hope gets weak
Know the Father hears through
The silence and the tears you
Pray, when you don't know how
Pray, Heaven's waiting now
And Jesus is just a breath away

So umm yes! Hahaha let's just keep praying, when good things happen, when bad things happen, God'll be there (: "

-an email from a friend (you could identify yourself in the tagboard)

Jeremiah 29:11

2009-09-27T00:44:00.002+08:00

"I alone know the plans i have for you, plans to bring you prosperity and not disaster, plans to bring about the future you hope for."

living in your own world

2009-09-25T23:45:00.003+08:00

i was pondering how it would be to live in one's own world. in isolation.

it wouldn't be too bad afterall. if it were means to make one feel better, is it such a bad thing?

even if people like us often tease them or are puzzled, worried, anxious... it doesn't at all

affect them a single bit.

perhaps its a place you feel safe in. to keep those doors closed. locked.

that is what we do in our homes when we go to bed every night.

it gives one a sense of security.

leaving the door ajar could be a window for opportunities.

one would hope for great things to come. hope for a better life. fortune. companionship. a never ending list.

but just as one dwell on his hopes, the hurt is so much bigger if the opposites were to happen.

and of course, with the doors wide open, we never know what is to happen.

a feeling of insecurity. a threat.

it is perhaps a fact that someone or something that hurt him so bad that he decided to shut

his doors to the entire world. only to dwell in what is in his world. his safehouse.

others will be more cautious. always checking the person at the door. it will take a long while to let that someone in. it is just like a controlled entrance.

what will happen if he made a wrong decision? perhaps close the door forever too?

i am the "others". cautious as to who i open my doors to.

what people know me for is that someone who stands outside the doors. not that someone

behind those doors. perhaps i have let some people in. perhaps i am considering closing it now.

i need a divine intervention now. a shield. to guard my mind, heart and my soul.

and to god am i crying out to now. i wonder if he heard me.

meetup with da hitlers!

2009-09-25T00:05:00.002+08:00

well. highlight of da week i guess.

really makes it all so much better than to meetup with ppl like Juo Wi, Cheryl, Eileen, Ros, Sophia my mei mei. well, never had such crazy moments with them for so long. singing, screaming, shouting, laughing, drinking.

well i can only say that you guys really made my day, and my week or my entire month even!

can't wait to see the photos!

Happy Birthday to Cheryl and Sophia too! =) a belated and early bday celebration for them

today as well.

thank god for really helping me out today. well i was hurrying to get to the mrt at 7.30am

this morning because the sky was getting dark really quickly. i was damn sure it was about to rain and i just knew that it has got to be him who held back the rain. it was drizzling slightly though, those heavy droplets felt as if they were forcing their way down through something that was obstructing the them.

and it poured the very moment i stepped into shelter at the mrt station! even an umbrella would'nt have been enough.

imagine gg to tampines on the train... wet clothes, wet floor. squeezing with wet ppl.

well, sums up my day. goodnight. its back to work again 2moro.

my mind

2009-09-22T00:09:00.002+08:00

is in a whirlwind now.

can't seem to figure out what to do.

otherwise i can't seem to accept my own decision.

this thing is driving me crazy.

just got to seek things to keep me occupied.

i hope i'll find my way out of this real sooon.

back to work! haha.

argh. can't wait for pay-day.

results day

2009-09-19T00:54:00.003+08:00

to me, i'm not satisfied.

ppl will never understand, they always say how good it already is.

but my father tells me about how well my brother did. much better than me.

isit a first year student thing to get straight As? or isit my lack of effort?

or intelligence?

i tell my father, myself, that i am not competing against others. it will

not take one far. i'd rather compete with myself, to win, to surpass my own expectations.

for now, i'm disappointed. it just seems to spiral downwards. lower and lower each

time.

surprises came along the way though. had a friend whom i'd never expect to be

so concerned and thoughtful about how i felt, re-affirm me. but yet i realise

some hopes and expectations from another,

that i longe from within died down as the night comes to an end now.

visited Catherine's blog again. i'm so edified by her most honest sharings.

how she would pray so innocently for her family, everyone of her siblings, her mum.

how much she misses her late father.

i always find myself praying for her family, one that really made a difference in my life.

i know how hard it is to understand and accept the cross, the burden and suffering of losing

a loved one. to question ones faith, why things turn out like this.

god has only plans for us to prosper. Jeremiah 29:11

thats what i am clinging onto at this very moment. at every moment from this very time.

Its Cheryl's birthday. Happy Birthday to the special girl. =)

the past week

2009-09-16T23:21:00.003+08:00

working in Tampines. 1 hr travelling there. 1 hr travelling back.

admin stuff at a bank's central office. shan't comment further. haha.

said the craziest thing ever in years yesterday. kinda regretting it.

sometimes somethings are better left unsaid. only to worry of its consequences

later right?

my eyes are recovering well. and am still on medication, kinda on self declared a

reduced dosage. because im lazy. or forgetful.

have no idea why im blogging this entry in a weird way like this.

realised that its really hard to reach out to some friends no matter

how hard you try. well. its just not well received rather. part of me just

wants to stop trying. be the way i was before. oh well.

intending to study in the UK or US. Aussie perhaps. but Holland really impressed me.

just can't seem to find Audio related courses that. that sux.

but i think i just want to leave this place. thats the bottomline of my intention, something

im certain of.

time out

2009-09-13T23:52:00.000+08:00

in a state of confusion now. thinking that things shouldn't have turned out this way.

if god knew it would be like this, why should he ever made such an arrangement?

oh gosh. this thing is just driving me nuts, not being able to tell anyone about it except

to myself.

this really can't be true. i really wonder if its god telling me to just take that brave step out?

it keeps coming back to me. hear it in my head. the many many coincidences.

anyone would think they are going mad if these were to happen to them.

ok maybe i shall find a confused kid who wouldn't understand what i say and say it all out.

haha.

should help?

as for now, work is my only distraction. an escape for now. =)

update soon!

2009-09-10T00:08:00.002+08:00

haha. dear blog, i will update you soon. promise!

been lazy. unwell lately. weird and random most of the time. gosh. pray that

i'll be fine and kickin'.

a burden?

2009-09-03T23:11:00.005+08:00

my week has been nothing but reviews at my eye specialist's. been there at least 3 times

this week, spending almost a thousand bucks.

sometimes i ponder over my parents passing remarks of how "problematic" i have been

since i was young. and it is true. all those countless medical conditions. i can see the stress

the faces of my parents now. i know they are really financially stretched whilst waiting for

the insurance reimbursement. spending more than $5k on one child in 2 weeks for a

middle income family really is a challenge.

sometimes i find myself asking god why i was made this way.

i feel like a burden everytime i see the worry and tiredness on their faces.

but nonetheless, everything will be fine in the end. =)

my day ends with these..

2009-08-31T01:19:00.003+08:00

how is it that the people you rely on the most, people whom you seek the most,

disappoint you, hurt you the most at the end of the day.

feeling transparent, judged, unloved.

friends, even family and your own parents at times.

perhaps there were times i haven't slowed down to notice the people around me too.

Colbie Caillat - Fallin’ For You

2009-08-26T17:42:00.002+08:00

I WANNA BUY THIS ALBUM. haiis.

Colbie Caillat - Fallin’ For You Lyrics

I don’t know but
I think I maybe
Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

As I’m standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It’s just you and me

I’m trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

Oh I just can’t take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

I can’t stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can’t hide it
I think I’m fallin’ for you (x2)

I’m fallin’ for you

Ooohhh
Oh no no
Oooooohhh
Oh I’m fallin’ for you

pretence

2009-08-25T20:19:00.000+08:00

ain't looking forward to it actually. i guess i just didn't want to know the truth.
reality hurts. ignorance is really a bliss.

lets just say, worry about the truth when it catches up with you later.

well, i'm having no intention of telling everyone about what i am up to. no need for the big
attention and worry.

of course i cannot deny the feeling of uncertainty, nervousness. its a lie if i say i am not a wee bit nervous.
i know i have a protector, someone from up above. everything will be fine in the end, because if it is not,
it is not the end.

exams first. putting these thoughts away for now. it just haunts me once in a while.

restless

2009-08-23T21:42:00.004+08:00

its over!

not the exams though. just one of the 2 papers. Media Transmission Systems... NO MORE!

just starting to feel like the holidays. I have yet to fully prepare myself for Video Technology
exams that is coming up this thursday.
its a feeling of over-confidence i guess. oh gosh.

a motivating factor for me to study for these exams are to know for a fact that that will be the very
last time i will be seeing and be doing that module. what is left is only a grade next to it on my
result slip and nothing else thereafter.
no room for regrets, none like i already did the last semester. that complacency.

but it is still hard. knowing you gotta do something about it, but not being able to find the
will-power to accomplish it.

oh. yeah, got an email from my lecturer notifying me of a proposition to be attached to
The Esplanade for the holidaysfrom 14th September onwards till school semester begins.
No allowance. No pay. Probably working past midnight at times.Perhaps 7 days a week.
It is still an experience though. A job opportunity, one that could buy me a chance to stay on
and work for them.

Should i take up the offer?

i'm amazed

2009-08-20T22:35:00.003+08:00

just so awesome how his daughter at the age of 7 could understand and interpret a song. i love the arrangement, the acoustics of the hall, the cello, bass drum,
the plucking, the pianist! i like the way he plays the piece with so much feeling. hahaha. really really cool.

it'll be cool if you have really good speakers or earphones! subwoofer too =)

study time

2009-08-15T02:45:00.001+08:00

its 3am, saturday morning. came back at 1am from a friday night out to celebrate benedict's bday.

its taking a hell lot of discipline to focus on my work. i'm praying for strength.
it sux to be so distracted and restless.

oh did i mention? i just bought a new laptop bag! =)
frm da Project shop. lovin' da fabric cover!

food for thought

2009-08-10T21:19:00.000+08:00

ever wondered why as children, we always loved to play but not work nor study?

what is it that makes playing "fun"?
is it the thrill, the enjoyment? what is fun?

well. i was thinking...why can't learning the multiplication table be fun to a 7 year old kid than
to play with his toys?

would the world be so full of hardworking people if doing work was fun?

expectations

2009-08-06T00:41:00.002+08:00

well i guess its good not to expect anything out of everything.
expectations make you strive for the better but make you disappointed like never.

"everything will be fine in the end. if it is not fine, it is not the end." - unknown

night photography workshop

2009-08-06T00:34:00.005+08:00

some photos of our module workshop, friday night =)

dinner after a convention, with John our mentor to the Phillipines

password?

2009-08-02T22:48:00.002+08:00

am considering to password my blog. well.

not feeling da best in weeks. i know i've not been myself. i need time.

looking back at the photo collage on my blog skin, i really do miss the times that i worked
with the children at the student care centre. though it was tiring, it all seems fulfilling now.
at least i could keep my mind from straying away. people say i simply bury myself in my busy-ness,
but i found joy and simple love, smile, laughter and a fair share of problems from the children
everyday.

this week that just passed has been a disappointment for me. it may all sound really stupid,
but i am disappointed with myself. i seem to have lost the determination and discipline to what
i am always longing for, company and friends, be it online or away from home.

for this past week my parents have been telling me not to neglect my study, that they have
observed and noticed that i haven't put in any time or effort, never revised. they have been telling
me to prioritize. constantly comparing me to my brother who seems to put
so much more effort in his studies.
they just seem to nag at me everyday.

nag.
nag.
nag.

but. as i settle down on a sunday evening, lying in bed thinking through many things. i realised that they are
right perhaps. is it the complacency in me? or perhaps i got to re-look at my priorities?
i'm worried about my academics. it just seems that everybody thinks that ronney will do well no matter what.
i don't seem to be able to find someone who can understand me now.

but its ok. ronney has made it through more than all these struggles himself.
2moro will be a better day =)

semester coming to an end

2009-07-30T01:18:00.002+08:00

this means more work, more stress, more pimples.

oh gosh. hmmph. i guess being a perfectionist means hard work and more demands.
projects, deadlines, class tests, practical tests, examinations. all coming up really fast.

it is a crazy week.

photos!

2009-07-30T00:52:00.003+08:00

St. Joseph's Football Club friendly match on Saturday 24th July09'

would appreciate credits if photos are used. =P *r-o-n-n*

my I&E grpmates 20th July09' (Joash, YennTing, Ronney, Grace, Khairul)

a module that pulls us from different courses. wun be seeing da grp as a whole anymore =(

will miss da times we had nothing to do but talk crap!

18th bday, 21st july 09',

dinner with my twin valerie. wad happened to all the gelare in town?? tuesday 1/2price waffles!

Steamboat @AMK with da TDP gang! 8thJuly09'

that friday that i have yet to upload da pics. and of course to celebrate Violet's bday!

my brother's scholarship ceremony! 17th July09',

time flies, 1 year since i got mine. stress stress to keep up.

and a random pic of my lecturer teaching Video Technology in class. video filters. =)

study in the U.S

2009-07-29T00:37:00.001+08:00

been considering studying overseas.

attended a seminar with Marcus about studying in the U.S during the recent Sunday.

Despite having so many factors to consider, part of me just wants to forget it all

and leave everything here.

it seems like a long way to go. i just want to get away. get right outta here. right now.

first reason: escape.

second reason: perhaps things will look/ seem better the day i should return.

...

2009-07-26T01:47:00.001+08:00

its a pity how things would end up like this. simplicity isn't easy afterall. that is why its a beauty.

lethargic

2009-07-25T01:09:00.006+08:00

its been an amazing week i know. i thank my family and friends for being there for me, making a

seemingly unimportant day to myself become important. i appreciate it alot.

its just something that i cannot explain. or perhaps i cannot share with anyone at all.

i know i will get through this myself.
promise i will upload da photos soon. =)

memories

2009-07-22T20:56:00.006+08:00

Our memory is everything to us. It is like our soul, our reason, a gift.

The soul is something that few believe in because it is something that many people will never

understand nor accept the importance of it. The absence of our soul could mean the absence

of love, compassion and everything we that were meant to be. Without ones memories, it is like being a

person without your soul.

Our memories are our reason to live, to know our purpose, our past and who we are meant to be.

If one should wake up one day and not know who he is, what he was and

what he is to do with his life, it will seem as if there were no

reason for his existence.

Memories are a gift from the people who love us. It is a gift that is written deep in our hearts.

It encompasses one's pain, joy, purpose and ambition.

What are the physical gifts you have on your table, by your bed

and around you for when you have no recollection who they were from and what they were for?

The memory, simply known to be only but a mere function of our brain is more that what it is!

It is the gift that we ought to be grateful for.

the division

2009-07-13T21:58:00.006+08:00

1 whole when divided by a million, is almost of an insignificant value, or rather, a zero.

a picture collage made up of many small pictures, yet you aren't able to see who is who

in each picture.

thats the way i see myself and the friendships around me now.

i see myself so divided and so preoccupied. having to split myself amongst

the many grps of ppl, my interests and the things around me.

its as if when i look back at all that i have walked through thus far, i see only fragments

of my heart, time and effort put into the people around me. As i look back, i start to

wonder if i have truly fulfilled my personal mission statement that i made years ago,

that is to make a difference in the lives of people around me through the smallest of things.

sadly, i don't see it anymore.

i feel like i have failed my friends, neglected some of them.

the division has made a whole of me distributed so insignificantly, 10 decimal places away

a value almost unnoticeable and often rounded of to its nearest whole number.

its as if i can no longer find that energy nor effort to try again. everything is just so

different. ronney is just so different the way he has been last year. i know many will

agree with me. in his search and effort to go beyond, he ends up nowhere.

what am i getting into? i do not even know. i just want to run back home to a place

i know i will forever belong to, wishing all else matters not anymore.

my photgraphy project !

2009-07-11T00:53:00.019+08:00

The Young Ones

Children. Often known to be the future of tomorrow. People find them mischeivious, playful

and irritating at times, but i see in them a carefree and pride-free person.

Watch, observe and notice their emotions. With little pride, they are the most genuine beings

around us, needless to hide how they feel.

Joy, fear, curiousity, anger, you see them all.

*I copied all these directly from my NP workshop page, submitted for my 1st project.

*All photos are taken by me and are copyright protected.

Pls seek permission before saving or using them **r-o-n-n**

" wiped away"

"Simplicity"

"Determination"

"Deep and Soulful"

"targets and dreams"

"pride and belonging"

updates =)

2009-07-11T00:25:00.004+08:00

thursday- Skating
friday- violet's bday (STEAMBOAT DINNER!!)

some photos Chen Chian, my classmate took =)

TOE-TOE , ian's on the left, i'm on da right pic =)

my first attempt. pretty bad try. "Acid" slide

cool shot chen chian took! hahaha.

Teochew porridge dinner after skating! =)

Friday photos coming up soooon! JOEL!!! Hurrryy!! haha

Nicholas Lee is Ronney???? (Under One Roof)

2009-07-08T13:40:00.003+08:00

haha!

Ronney is in Video Tech class now, sitting at the back.. and Marcus beside me is playing this video and singing away, again and again!

if you remember the opening song of UNDER ONE ROOF

class photos!

2009-07-04T03:09:00.004+08:00

here are some of my class shots! =)

photography module teacher took them. except for the one with boat quay behind, i used a tripod =)

complete family photo! (khairul absent)

back alley jump shot! EXCLUSIVE!! unique riiite?? my idea ;)

shot using a 12mm lens! super wide angle, i borrowed the school's lens, my camera.

yup, and dis is my phtg lecturer.

emotions

2009-07-02T00:15:00.010+08:00

was at the roof garden of a shopping centre doing my photoshoot. and in the evening, i met my twin val and we sat there again.

it was just so great so great to observe all that was going on around me.

looking at the children running around, so carefree.

watching every emotion on their faces can be pretty amusing. they were very afraid of the water elements when their parents brought their hands or feet to it. but each time they do that, you see that fear fade away into a smile, then it becomes a laughter.

they put little thought or considerations when they run through the tunnels with water spraying at them.

coming out drenched, but amused, they turn around and run back in towards the other direction.

also i've seen parents whipping out their cameras, capturing every moment of their children. reminds me of how my parents take out photographs of my childhood and reminiscing about our younger years. the joy on their faces.. the faces of the parents.

then there were also parents who went all out to play with their children! running around with them, carrying them, spinning them on the rides. you see so much love in their eyes. you see them capturing every moment if their children in their memory.

to know that what i have seen is just the minority, it is such a pity. because most children spent their playing time at home only, not with toys, but with computers, television...

i've found a place where i can find so much joy if i should feel down. they make me smile =)

shirt of the year!

2009-07-01T23:07:00.003+08:00

ronney was deciding whether to wear this particular shirt on Monday.

because this friend of his has a similar one, but he thought he would never meet her because there were no lessons together.

BUT. this happened when we met in the canteeen! OMG. so embarassing!

random

2009-06-29T00:22:00.001+08:00

school's starting! i need to find my motivation!

my decision =)

2009-06-27T23:46:00.007+08:00

mood: gladness

i made a courageous decision and am very happy about that.

people have always said how important communication is but never really understood what they said. but i've brought across my thoughts and feelings to the person i spoke to today, with an open mind this time round, accepting what the other person feels and decides.

i know i will still wish you all the best and i'll keep you in my prayers always!

i'm glad that we're still friends and i thank you for sharing with me your thoughts, it makes me feel so much better.

my doors remain open. and i hope you will keep yours open too!

who knows what the future holds? haha.

and then of course i thank god that we both do not dwell in the past anymore! =)

there seems to be so much to say, blogging is a way to let out all that is on my mind. i hope you don't mind? let me know if you do ok?

PS to all readers: this is not an "emo" entry ok?? haha.

my week!

2009-06-23T00:39:00.003+08:00

monday: meetup with Cheryl, skating at East Coast =)

had a series of crazy events! awesome!

tuesday: Proffessional Preparation Prog in NP.

Seoul Garden Buffet with class 422! woOoooo.!

wednesday: Stg management module test!

thursday: hangout day!

friday: skating at east coast again!

saturday: Church Feast day Appreciation Dinner

sunday: Concamp09 Team Heads Appreciation Lunch

procrastination

2009-06-21T22:00:00.001+08:00

ronney shall update his blog soon. hahahas!

update 1

2009-06-20T02:18:00.003+08:00

hahaha. ok twin. yes.

met up with my twin valerie before confirmation camp, knowing that we'll all be so busy with our own things. even though we'll be in the same camp for 4D 3N, but we will be in our own world, busy with our own things.

so yeah! haha. had dinner and just chat lor. been so long since we catch up.

school. common tests. planning for confirmation camp for church da past 6 months.

work, shifting house, settling down and so much more for val.

yeah. =)

got a sunflower for her to cheer her up!

and so more updates are to come! stay tuned!

SOON

2009-06-18T00:32:00.001+08:00

ronney will update his blog soon!

haha.

alot alot of things really. haha. don't know where to begin.

Everything In Its Time =)

2009-06-06T23:57:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round

Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer,
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign

'cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time

meetup!

2009-06-06T02:08:00.002+08:00

been so busy to upload photos! haha. shall just play em' all here.
it was just awesome to meet Cheryl and Eileen in NP this week! miss them so much =)

more photos to come! been gg to arts fest shows, such as The Crab Flower Club and Cullberg Ballet at the Esplanade. Its part of school event. oh well. im broke.

There is nothing you can do, nothing to make me love you less

2009-05-30T01:03:00.003+08:00

a 10 minute long video, but its worth watching. it may be from a christian point of view,

but we could also perceive it as the unconditional love that never changes, the love our parents have for us, no matter what we have done. =)

random

2009-05-26T14:37:00.004+08:00

Fahmi: Cher! What are salesmen for?
Tea'Cher: To con your money.

Video Tech lessons now, in the fridge. at least 16 degrees celcius here for 3 hours larhh. grrrr.
learning about tvs. lcds. plasmas. crt. and how they all work.
today.. is Plasma vs Lcd. =)

we are watching "Monster Inc" ! woohoo

2009-05-24T01:13:00.001+08:00

"love can touch us one time, and last for a lifetime." =)

=(

2009-05-20T23:28:00.004+08:00

don't feel too good now. can't describe nor explain why.

perhaps i cannot say them out here anymore.

oh well, i just know that everything will be fine eventually,

that the sun will shine 2moro once again.

water

2009-05-17T23:40:00.001+08:00

inspirations while swimming. =)

something's stirring in me.

yawns!

2009-05-17T00:34:00.002+08:00

ronney had a super long day.

7.30am- Botanic Gardens, Phtg CCA, race all around the entire place

2.oopm- Lunch and Movie, Angels and Demons, Tanglin, Marina Square. Bought blower, brush cleaning kit.
Cleaned my camera sensor!!

5.00pm- Visit exhibition at Raffles Link, School Module assignment

6.30pm- Da Bao dinner, go marina bay. Marina Barrage. School Module assignment

9.30pm- left the place after fireworks and performances.

11.00pm- Reach home, clean camera kit.

1245am- Blogging

class!

2009-05-15T11:04:00.004+08:00

the hunks in class =)

the impossible

2009-05-11T18:30:00.002+08:00

ronney is trying to schedule 3 meetings 2moro, in one evening. back to back.

frustrations

2009-05-10T23:30:00.003+08:00

i've been neglecting my studies. i know. but i cannot find the energy, time and determination to at this point in time anymore.

its hard. will someone really understand me?

all these busy-ness has kept all that has been bothering me all bottled up. i can't seem to find it anymore, but i know they are still there.

i pray. i pray. and i pray.

can't seem to share like i used to. things i say, i have to be mindful, watchful, careful.

evidence

2009-05-10T00:37:00.002+08:00

ronney is blogging this so that he can dig his archives and find dis.

Jennifer said she is gg to bring him overseas, aussie i suppose, to be her wedding phtg.

hahahaha. getting a 0.23 carat ring veri happy liao rite??

skates

2009-05-08T00:34:00.003+08:00

im pimping up my skates! gonna buy a metal chain for my left skate =)

haha.

Check out da wheels i changed ;)

and da mountain of fries we stacked!

during break time! we moved from one place to another because we were told we couldn't play poker cards!

swimming!

2009-05-07T00:38:00.001+08:00

ronney is going to swim in school 2moro =)

i need excercise! life has been like "a million and one things to do" thing now.

dreams

2009-04-27T23:45:00.006+08:00

"the toilet is a place where great ideas are generated
it is also a place for reflection and contemplation."
-denise.

i've got to agree with her. though its weird, it is true!

i was thinking about "dreams".

It made me look back at the moments when we were young.

we often say

"my dream is to be a doctor"

"my dream is to be a pilot"

"my dream is to be the rich!"

It also made me look back at the times when we taught the children back in Phillipines to dream. Dreams to break that poverty cycle. Give them hope. Inspire them to dream. I still remember vividly till this very moment how these little ones stood up and told us what their dreams are. That confidence in their speech, hope in their eyes and joy in their smiles.

I dream too. But it is when i realise that these dreams fail to come true time after time, i begin to think dreams are nothing but our fantasy. We all know that we must take an effort to chase, to fulfill that dream and to find our joy and happiness. There were many successes but many failures too. Failures make you a stronger person at times but failure tears you apart too.

It is just like taking a leap off a cliff to the opposite side, the effort to chase one's dreams. When you fail, you realise you are far from what you dreamt and find yourself falling into a bottomless pit. Then came hope, where you landed on another piece of land to stand upon. Would you dare to take the leap to get across again? Or stay where you are?

skating today =)

2009-04-24T00:49:00.001+08:00

pain, blood, injuries. make me feel alive.

is the world coming to an end?

2009-04-22T23:35:00.003+08:00

brother: woah! the wind is so freaking strong all of a sudden larh! Why the weather so weird?

father: yeah. you don't know? The world is coming to an end !

me: =.="

hi people. yes i will upload some photos too very soon!

school has been tiring. tuesdays are long days. 8am-6pm with 1 hr break.

first 2 days of school was cca fiesta. haha.

really did enjoy being emcee/ dj for da event. haha. 2nd time doing such thing.

pretty nervous. not as nervous as last time though. i enjoyed it!

thank you to all the affirmations and praises leh =P

ronney just got some really cool apps on his iphone today! hahaha.

he can now open and close programs of his macbook, on and off, and make a pop-up msg to the macbook from his phone from anywhere under wifi server coverage! hahaha.

and!

control his ppt slides too. ;) im so happy! haha.

ok i shall just post one pic only instead larh ok? my favourite! from the Marina Barrage. =)

update soon!

2009-04-20T00:51:00.000+08:00

Ronney thinks he should update his blog soon.

my flikr !

2009-04-14T01:51:00.003+08:00

my Flickr portfolio!

MUST take a look! =)

photos!

2009-04-14T01:27:00.005+08:00

my only excuse to make myself update this blog.

meetup with the team of NJC and NP ppl!

haha. it was really an awesome meetup will 1am!

BBQ soon this friday! looking forward to it!woohoo

@KAP Mcdonald's den we walked to Brewerkz =P

and. CHECK THIS OUT. APPLE FREAKS!

my iphone, tricia and gerald's ipod touch!

gerald, joel and my macbook!

distance in time

2009-04-12T22:16:00.004+08:00

Indeed time flies. People always say that what is past has passed. You can look back but you know there is no turning back.

It leaves me puzzled at times that what seemed so far felt so near for a while that it draws a smile on me and creates a dream in me. However, strangely as i opened my eyes i realise that everything vanishes. Makes me wonder if you were there or was it a figment of my imagination.

What is it about dreams that make a person smile? Is it a sign that perhaps someday it may come true and makes you desire and take that leap to make it true? Or just an impossible fiction, an imagination?

I'm not upset or whatever. I'm just puzzled. What is going through your mind?

I wish i could read your mind and see it all in your beautiful eyes.

I'm not ashamed nor afraid to say that i miss you, because i really do.

And i hope to hear from you soon, that is if you know who i am speaking to. =)